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Saturday, September 2, 2006
It is said if you dream and your dream comes true your physic. But if your dreams become religious in nature your deemed crazy? I wonder what would happen if all those who were Dreamkeeprs in the bible and the Koran, and all the religious books phophets were to come on earth. Would they deemed as crazy and locked up? Or would they hailed as Satan-believers? Or worst yet? . . . . .remain silent in fear of being found out and being labled the latter? Jerry Falwell believes that if you hear voices or have religious dreams you are possessed by Demons. Yet? I don't think he read the bible to closely. If he had - he would of realized many of the people he preaches about had dreams and if you think about it real hard - they were religious.
My dreams have been speaking to me for a very long time. I think it now or never. It's time to speak out. Why should I be afraid to tell someone what I dreamt last nite? Why is it frowned upon? I dream in color and it is like watching a movie except my dreams are real in the sense that the people in my dreams aren't 3-d - instead there real-time. Just as if you saw me vs you. Recntly they were telling me thing and I said to myself. Enough is enough. What DO I WANT TO DO?! So, I did the opposite of my dreams. I think I am more satified with this decision than I'll ever be.
My advice if your dreaming and sacred of what your seeing. Don't be. There is a way to interpret your dreams and you won't find the answer in any book - or doctor. The answers come from you. The answers come from your hearts of hearts. You need to remember what is right and justice. Do not let your dreams fool you into doing something that is not you as in true in nature. Go out an buy a notebook and soon as you wake up from the dream. Write it down. Then several days or even weeks go back and re-read what you wrote. You'll come to realize the dreams you had might of been about something that was going on in your life.
Well, anyways, Dreams are Powerful.
(Oh- in case your into magic- some
times putting something personal in
your bed like a teddy bear
or a pet rock sometimes helps too.)
Friday, May 19, 2006
Awake again at 1am - this after I went to bed late at 11:30pm!
My dreams woke me up at 1am today. But today I said no. Today I was going to sleep in. By three am I was up yet again - it was another dream that kicks you out of bed like someone throwing cold water on you after a nice warm bath.
Yesterday, I started to remember everyone I met at FOW. If you are familiar of this place you know this is one place Hollywood, Bollywood, musicians, Sports Icons, and Media (not tabs or paps) show up in the summer time. They don't all show up at once tho. It's a city far from Hollywood - a place people would never visit because the city is so boring. Even I did not realize that they were them. I never really followed who's who in the acting world.
One of the first ladies I met at FOW - was this 70 year old lady. She was Jewish and always had a story to tell. She would talk how she was friends to Seinfelds mother. At first I figured she was just telling a story. She'd tell me things that only a friend would know. Then one day as we were sitting by the pool - a man walked by - he looked familiar. But I didn't really look at him because I was talking. Suddenly, he looked like he wanted to come over and talked to my friend but he stopped short and just nodded and continued on his way. My friend was turned to me and asked quietly do you like Seinfeld? And I said - yah I do! He so...before I could finish - She looked me in the eye - the kind of look someone gives you as well, why didn't you say hello?
Soon after that my other friend Susan an retired British Woman in her 50's. Would sit next to me and read the tab's. I kept telling her - you know that stuff isn't true. She would respond Yes, they are..yes they are...plus you have to keep up to date so who know who everyone is. She said. Later when summer started to roll in. I found myself laying out in the sun. And Susan would come up to me in total surprise! Do you know who your sitting next to?! She make the sleeping woman laying next to me sit up and extend her hand. We would talk briefly and then go back to our sunbathing. Susan did this to me often. There were allot of Who's who' at FOW. There were times I would be in the main lobby and I would hear: I just got interviewed by CBS it'll be on tonite. So, later in the evening I would watch the interview about the next movie that would be coming on soon. I oftened wondered why I didn't drag certain family members to FOW and say see! That's him! But I never did. I am a firm believe in Privacy. And I thought the whole reason they would even bother show up in this boring city was to relax.
When The 70's yr old lady friend went to England for vacation only to stumble and fall. She was whisked back on Seinfelds private plane. She came back in a wheelchair. I never doubted her or Susan again about what was happening at FOW.
I guess seeing is believing.
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On another note. Brad Pitt's Movie Time Traveler's wife. When I first read the description, the first name came to mind was ALEX. When I first met him he was this German (survior of the war-not Jewish) He was escentric. Cranky. Very negative about life in general. But I thought by talking to him he would tell me a story about his life and maybe I could bring some cheer in it. Some people told me not to bother. I ignored them. One of my many talks to ALEX was he told he me was working on a story/script about a man who traveled back in time and met people. Including the woman he loved. Later and it took allot of patience and time but I got ALEX to tell me why he never married. It turned out there was this gal that he really liked. But for some reason he choked at the last moment in time to tell her how he felt. And she slipped away.
I think back at all the times I choked at the last minute - and something - apart of you - slips away from you. I have since then tried not to choke. But it is hard.
When I left FOW - I never did say my proper goodbyes. (not even to Alex who was dying to cancer) I choked.
So, if anyone know's who these people from FOW - ...
Harriet - You always had a funny story to tell...
Susan who passed on before I moved away....
Lou who was supposedly a retired crime boss and smoked cigars up the ying yang...
His wife.(b)..also a story teller...
Antonio - The bosian and world soccer player..who also had a flair for food....
Sayo....who blew glass....soccer...and could not go to a dentist because of the war...
Sayo's brother...I could never remember your name...but we were always gossiuping about you because your life was a whirlwind...
The other Bosian...such interesting lives...
Guy who was a construction worker and loved cats but refused to clean up after himself even if the cat did his business on the floor in the corner....
Russell the womanizer...
Mike who was worried about the world...
Goodwin and boyfirend(which name fails me) - always cheering me up when I was sad...
The Irish Mother who's son looked like that particular Musicain that everyone talks about.......
Tony...a comedian on R&R,
Steve- the musicain....
Tao...who you could always find propped up on a chair in the sun reading the np.....
Tomas....thx.'s for showing me the way.....
And everybody else who took the time to sit down and chat with me... sorry I forgot to say goodbye......
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Awake @ 2am.
Today, was better I woke up around 2am. Maybe enventually I will be like every one else and get decent nite sleep. But then prob. not. I never know the exact time I wake up. Sounds funny. I have a battery operated clock sitting next to my bed. The only problem is it's one of those complicated clocks and it has no instructions. My clock is pushed forwarded by twenty minutes. When I wake up I have to really think in my head - "What Time is it?". Then I have to do the math. I hate Math. But, figuring things out helps me get back to reality or at least the reality I am now living.
Brad Pitt has a movie coming out that is called the Time Travelers Wife. It is prob. a Spin off of Doctor Who (British tv). Except Doctor Who never got married, but maybe that was in the last installment which I never did get to see. A movie about Time. They say there is certain portals in the universe where people (who know how) can slip in unnoticed and visit someone they love. There are allot of dead web sites on the web. Could this also be a portal? A loop of some kind? Where voices can be heard? Talking to a dead site may sound funny - but I have found in my four years adventure of unemployment that there is indeed an actual website on the web where your voice can be heard. And no email is needed. Found this site by accident...no wait that isn't true...my dreams lead me there. All I can say is if you ever find that actual site make sure you choose wisely - because in the evening after to get off the computer that one nite of tinkering will get you one nite worth of voices in your dreams from your past.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
May 17th 2006 (awake @ 1:50am)
My dreams sometimes kick me out of bed really early in the morning. I once heard BRAD PITT comment that he gets up Butt Early - I wonder if this is the same thing? Could he have the same problem as I do?! Prob. not. He's an actor who has to get up for work - while my main purpose of getting up is because my dreams dictate my sleep. I sleep in color. So, going to sleep every nite is like sticking a tv or a movie inside my head that never turns off. I've talked to other people who say this is plain weird. Most people sleep in B/W. I often wonder is there anyone else besides me who sleeps in color?
While this entry sounds sad - it's not. I believe in my dreams - always have(since the age of nine but most recently age 7). I tried to write a script once. I did not have the funds at the time to buy the script writing program ($300). So, my sister who was working in HOLLYWOOD at the time. Sent me 2 scripts. So, I could figure out how your supposed to do it. Incidently, one of the scripts got made Unconditional Love by Moorehouse & Hogan; the second script which is why I wrote my first PARAGRAPH......
is called IN YOUR DREAMS Screenplay by D. S. & B.R. It got shelved. But I really-really think this one should of got made. (I have the only known copy)
What this script is all about you should ask me. It mirrors my own life. But, the only problem? The script has an ending....but...I am still waiting for mine.
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